Testimonies - Testimony

During the WPPS we learned to keep a journal. This became something very important to me.

We had to bring a blank notebook with a hard cover. I had the choice between two different notebooks. One was blank and the other one had sheet music on it. I HAD TO bring the one with music notation. Later on I found out why.

There were magazines from which we had to tear things, which attracted us even though we didn't know why. With those cuttings, we would make the front of our journal. Little by little, the sheet music disappeared of the cover. Suzy gave me a text, which I had to use. It said: play for fun. All of my life I have been struggling with a musical gifting, which I had to use in the church and which I hate so much. I did not struggle with the music itself (I actually love it) but the forced use of it. After all, you should not waste your gifting. Thanks to this line play for fun, I now know that I only have to play music for fun! On the cover there is still some sheet music visible, and they will stay visible, but a natural gifting is something different than a spiritual gifting! Maybe one day God will give me so much joy in playing that I will also use it in a service, but only because I want it badly!!!!! That is what makes the difference!

Of course, I had many cuttings and while the covers were filled with pictures and texts, I continued with the inside.

An official family picture of Sarah Ferguson and her ex-husband, Prince Andrew and their children, attracted me. On the picture it said: Andrew will always stay my great love. My ex-husband name is also and I thought that he would be my great love forever. That is not the way it is, and that is good because he was always violent in his words, and sometimes in his deeds, and he broke many things.

Guess what Suzy gave me? A Scripture (of which I don't even know where to find it) Let the heads of those who surround me be covered with the trouble their lips have caused. Let burning coals fall upon them; may they be thrown into the fire, into miry pits, never to rise. Let slanderers not be established in the land; may disaster hunt down men of violence. This is not what I want to wish him, but it is necessary that I learn to look at it with different eyes. Also, Suzy gave me a spare text break the cycle and as a final blow: the wedding Scripture we received when I got married to the man of my life, whom God has purposed for me. The continuation of that Scripture is my beloved one is in the garden, my beloved loves lilies. My husband does the same and on the back of my journal there are lilies and next to the wedding Scripture I had glued a water lily. Also a lily but a different kind, one that grows in the water, and for us the water is a symbol of cleansing and new life (this comes back later).

During the first worship, Rene was painting. On her canvas I saw very clearly the words Jesus loves me, it was not there in reality, but I saw it and for me it was a new vision upon God's love.

The next day Suzy asked who felt worse than the day before. Together with two other women, I raised my hand. We received prayer and I felt like depression and feelings of death were taken of us, and somebody prophesied that we would be leaders in the Kingdom of God, and that God loves us who and the way we are!

The person had an impression for me; one handing me a yellow rose and one saw me as a rose flourishing (my journal is covered with flowers and on the back it says crazy about flowers.)

Then Josh started to lead the worship and he started with the song You've stolen my heart, yes You have You wiped away the stains and broke away the chains, yes You have That moment I literally felt the chains be broken off. My neck, which I could hardly move, I could now turn and I felt such a peace coming over me. God had indeed stolen my heart! In the art workshop later that day, I painted a fiery red heart, but it seemed to be hidden behind all kinds of colors and structures, but definitely a beautiful warm beating heart!

During the prophetic workshop, I received the word heartbeat and that was for Ida the most important prophecy she received at that moment. I also received twelve prophecies from others, and they all seem to be for me and that is a big wish of me becoming truth.

Also there were other words, that are so important for me.

    * * Chain of pearls (in my cell phone I have got the welcoming text Pearl in God's hand, I made picture cards of a pearl in God's hand and encouraged a lot of people with it. Instead of the chains with which Satan had kept me in bondage, I can be a beautiful pearl myself now, connected with so many other beautiful pearls).
    * * School study is important (in case I was doubting whether the study I am doing and want to continue still makes sense).
    * * Cleansing, be clean
    * * Share
    * * New eyes
    * * New Life

Prophesies are from God to encourage us? Didn't He say so? What prophecy did I write down myself not knowing it was for me? Word is unshakable To this I can just only say AMEN!

I am allowed to forget, I am forgiven, I received a new life, filled with the love of the Lord, Who loves me unconditionally. I may learn to look with His eyes. My life will never be the same again!

With LOVE,

       - Tineke , Holland